Choosing Ascension: My Journey of Healing and Transformation
Facing My Darkness
I am looking forward to 2025! 
Since my son Brigham’s passing, and months before that, I have devoted my time to going within and facing my darkness.
I have finally put myself first by taking a sabbatical to deep dive into my inner conflicts and hidden patterns of victimhood. First, owning that I was a victim—yet I am no longer defined by my past.
You pass on what you withhold, and my eleven children have been affected by my hidden truths and by living out of my body, completely dissociated from my childhood trauma that created pain.
Why dig it up, you might ask? There is no good or bad energy unless it is denied the right to be seen and heard.
The Earth is Shifting
The Earth is shifting, changing faster than we can comprehend how to stay on top of it or control it.
Shadow that used to lie dormant is now coming to the surface. Dense energy will prove fatal if it stays hidden, stuck, bypassed, or projected onto others.
Doctors will not be able to give you a pill to remove stuck energy causing mental and physical illnesses.
Choosing the Path of Ascension
I am choosing life—to face my fears head-on, to expose my shadow to the light, to discover who I am, what I came here for, and where I’m going.
I believe that is the first step toward my ascension plan. This year is critical. It is a time to choose and create your future.
We have the privilege to make a choice:
To love life and live or to fear death and die.
I am choosing the challenge of the path of Ascension.
Does this mean I believe I am going up to heaven? 
No. I am not going anywhere—I am simply choosing the frequency and vibration of love over fear, oneness over separation.
By dealing with the dense distortions of 3D energy—religious dogma, dysfunctional upbringing, and fear-based patterns of past lives—I can transmute my shadow and uplevel my vibration.
A Lifetime of Preparation
My Akashic records show I have lived many, many lifetimes to prepare for this privileged time to be alive.
The Earth is going through unprecedented changes that humankind has never experienced on this planet. My path involves ascending with the frequency and changes of Mother Gaia.
This has not been easy. I arrived in this lifetime as an infant, experiencing huge challenges and obstacles that were hidden—until now.
Healing Generational Trauma
After being diagnosed with all three symptoms of complex PTSD, I finally understand why I have felt so misunderstood, why I have attracted abusive behaviors into my life, and why I now have the wisdom to be a shadow expert.
I chose big shadow because I made big promises—to learn the wisdom that comes from bringing light and love to shadow.
Transmuting the heavy ancestral dysfunction that I finally understood after doing family constellations for myself… disrupting and healing four generations of abuse that I chose into before I came.
I have used many modalities of healing, including therapy.
Now, I finally recognize a trauma response and know how to regulate my nervous system. This has been huge for me—to know that I can choose extraordinary rather than just coping.
I have learned how to respond rather than react.
Raising My Frequency
I am now conscious of:
- Who I mingle with
- How I spend my time
- Raising my frequency and vibration
- Surrounding myself with energies cohesive with the Ascension of the planet
Getting to know myself means uncovering and discovering the layers of surviving, coping, blaming, and hiding—identifying when I am stuck in dysfunctional patterns.
The courage it takes to go deep enough to allow yourself to be vulnerable… to become the victim, that injured little inner child waiting to be healed, cradled, seen, and heard.
How can I be of service as a shadow expert if I bypass my own darkness?
If you need support facing your fears, into your trauma, into your secrets and hidden treasures of the Divine that lie waiting to be discovered, join our community. Reach out to me for a one-on-one inquiry call.
Much love and Compassion
Shauna Lynn
Relationship Mentor, Shadow Alchemist, Tantra Guide
A Fresh Start in Oaxaca (Coming Soon…)
I realized I needed to start fresh.
After experiencing a lot of deep feelings I had dissociated from—sadness, depression, and anger—I scheduled a reading from my guides.
They acknowledged all the work I have done and immediately suggested that I take a break, get out of my living space, and change my environment.
The energy I’ve been clearing out is 70 years old—very old, very heavy energy. They said:
“It’s like you fumigated your house but you’re still staying in the fumigation.”
So, I made a decision:
I am going to Oaxaca, Mexico to:
Enjoy the sun and clean air
Get out of my house for a while
Leave behind 2024 and all my past history
Recreate my life with fresh energy and frequency
To fully embrace this shift, I hired a house sitter to water my beautiful plants, a house cleaner to deep clean my home, and even scheduled my rug to be shampooed.
I am so excited to leave for Oaxaca. I am deeply recreating my life. I love it.
(Stay tuned for updates on my journey…)
How to Use This Blog Series
If you want to share your own shadow work journey, let’s connect in our community. If you feel the call to uplevel your vibration, I invite you to join me. If you’re interested in following my trip to Oaxaca, I’ll be sharing updates via email and blog!
My only two children, two sons, both died within a five year period. The trauma was so intense that I spent a couple of years in deep grief and then years in psychotherapy. I’m very grateful for the time in therapy and the skills I learned that help me to love myself, forgive and let go. But still there was something deep in me that needed help. In the safety of the “Circle” of Family Constellation, I was able to face the pain that I had buried so deep I didn’t know what it was or how to heal it. In the Circle, the buried emotions came up and out. And in the light of day, those terrifying, buried emotions were seen, heard, expressed and began to lose their power. The Circle initiated a clearing of dense emotions and a clarity which offered me the empowerment I needed to heal and to open myself to love. The Circle has transformed me in ways beyond what I had hoped for.
-Cathy
